I have a doctors appointment in the morning with the eye doctor, my blurred vision episodes have returned, since the doctor pulled me off my thyroid medicine, I’m hoping it’s not doing any permanent eye damage. I have an appointment, with the endocrinologist on the 15th, to see about my thyroid. I’m not sure what they will tell me but I’m sure it will involve medicine of some sort. The Doctor seems to think my back pain is muscle releated and she gave me a prescription for physical therapy. I wish I could just get all this over with and get back to normal, I’m sick and tired of feeling sick and tired all the time……

For the past 6 months or so I’ve been dealing with back pain, well about a week before we had to move Mark suddenly began having back pain from outta nowhere. So we went and took him to the E.R. because we needed him to be ok for work and stuff I personally am biding my time until medical insurance kicks in. Well the Doctor figured out immediately that it was his sciatic nerve causing his pain, they gave him some med’s and told him to follow the discharge instructions and the pain would be gone within about a week. Well as I read over the discharge paperwork I noticed that all the symptoms listed for this were the same one’s I’ve been suffering with. So I’m thinking that this is what’s wrong with me. However we are so far in the hole with medical bills already, and since I’m not working or anything, I’m just holding off until February when the insurance kicks in. But I tell you what it just really sucks dealing with this pain day in and day out. It’s not only physically exhausting but emotionally and mentally draining as well. I move around feeling like a little old lady, because half the time I can’t stand for more than a few minutes at a time. Taking a shower requires a stool for me to sit on and I also keep a stool that I drag around the house with me for my daily chore’s like laundry, or cooking or whatever I may happen to be doing. Going to the store is almost always a chore as I need to constantly rest on a cart, and you might as well forget doing stuff like going to the mall because I just can’t handle the walking. I just hope February get’s here fast because I really don’t know how much more I can take of this.

I went to the E.R. On Wednesday because I was having chest pains, turns out I have what they call a Heart arrhythmia, this is caused by my hyperthyroidism. Luckily the arrhythmia isn

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My Hubby has informed me today that after thinking long and hard on the matter….that he has decided he wants to have a baby! I mean he wants me to have it but…lol…well you get what I’m saying. An extraordinary feat this will be since My tubes are tied…meaning that the only way for my pregnancy to take place will be when a doctor makes a little petri dish cocktail and the does in vitro fertilization (spell?). Well I’m stoked at the possibility even though it may not happen for a few years (Some bills need to be taken care of first). I would love another little one. That has always been all that I wanted anyway…when other girls in school were daydreaming about their careers all I wanted was a family…I’m and old fashioned kinda gal I guess I get that from my mother…she always like staying at home and playing house too though the opportunity never really happened for her. Sooo Hopefully things will go the way we want and in a couple of years we can get started on our own family…we only want one…since I already have 3. I’m hoping for another boy…he wants a girl…lol. go figure.

Left to go get something to eat yesterday and I started to take a step down the stairs (we have a second floor Apartment) and wham My knee goes out from under me! Good thing for the rails or I would have never caught myself. I can just see me tumbling down the stairs. I have horrible knees I tore them up in high school playing volleyball. Well anyway so alllllllll my weight lands right on my knee. (OUCH !!!!!!!!!!!!!) So now I’m hobbling all over the place cuz I knocked my knee plate out of socket and had to put it back……..Damn knees. Soo anyway tonight we left to go to the grocery and after I hobbled my way down the steps I noticed how beautifully foggy it is. I love fog. We went for a drive in it. And it’s so thick you can’t even see the tail lights of the car in front of you. I like it. And Now here I sit doing nothing I’m rather board at the moment. I’m thinking of Playing Sims but then it’s just one of those times when nothing sounds fun……who knows. I’m going to quit rambling now and jump off of here….byeeeeeeee.

I haven’t been around in a while cuz My depression hit an all time low this year but I should be kewl now I got new meds for my bi-polar. Which means no more ups and downs. YEAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!

My Website is coming along well. only problem is that my forums are dead with the exception of my staff members…..and hubby no one is posting. Sux when you work hard to set stuff up and no one uses it. Ohh well call me a dork but I enjoy working with the stuff…lol. Hope everyone on here has been ok while I was missing…lol.

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I have been awake since 9:00 A.M. & Right Now Its going on Midnight and I’m in pain so I can’t sleep I even took a perkoset & No good. However the upside to this is (and to keep myself from being miserable I have to think of something) is that Mark & I have been reading a book together. It’s “The Vampire Lestat” By Anne Rice I have never read any of her books before. In case you don’t know It’s the sequel to “Interview with a Vampire”, this far it has turned out to be a pretty good book and I’m already planning on buying the others in the series. So now that I’m not so dopey let me tell you what I remember from being in surgery. The First thing is that the anesthesiologist And Doctor come in the operating room and The anesthesiologist asks me where I’m from ( I get that alot, as it seems I seem to have an accent to these northwesterners) and I tell him Ohio and wouldn’t you know it so is he…lol. For some reason anesthesiologist feel the need to be sneaky and while I’m talking to he and the doctor laying on the tabel he slips the anesthesia into my iv and then I say well Iguess I’m gonna get sleepy now and the next thing I know I’m waking up crying in recovery. Not sure why but for some reason anesthesia always seems to make me cry? The Nurse says thats perfectly normal and that it happens to alot of people. So anyway thats all I can think of to say right now Sooooooooo I’ll catch up later. Angel

So I Had The Surgery Today and just as I said it would IT SUCKED!!! I hate waking up from the anesthetic I always cry. I found myself crying for my son and Mark when I woke. And My legs were sore as hell from being in stirups. But the good news is they got it all as far as we know I’ll find out for sure when I go back for my follow up appointment. Mark is so good to me he has been taking good care since I got out of the hospital. And right now I’m dopey from the drugs still so if my spelling sucks I’m sorry…lol. but Anywho I’m gonna run and lay down. Byeeeeeee. Angel