I don’t expect anybody to read this and if they do I appreciate you fully.. but I honestly generally feel like I’m losing myself, I don’t know how much more I can take, I literally wake up ask myself what I’m doing everyday, I put in application to get a job and also try to take steps to better my life but it seems like nothing I do is right, the one thing that made me feel like I had purpose was taken away from me and I’m honestly fighting an internal battle every day to stay afloat I really feel like I’m alone in all this I get people out there are living life and what not but no one ever hits me except two or maybe three people, to them I appreciate you more than you’ll ever know just know I do not ever be silent on how you feel especially when it scares the hell out of you everyday