I can’t explain the loss I feel when I see you in my mind. I can’t describe the loss I have or the emptiness inside. So many memories from so many days gone by, and yet you are not here to share in the delight. We were not always near and sometimes even years had passed before we hugged again, yet we always knew that we were sisters in the end. I can’t see you in my tomorrows, but I will treasure our yesterdays.

~In memory of Lisa~

Well hello there!

A post shared by Angel (@mrsangeld) on Apr 30, 2017 at 6:02pm PDT

So it’s been a week since they removed my toenail, and thankfully I’ve only bumped it once. Man was that ever painful, but what was even more painful was the epsom salt bath the day after. It hurt so bad I actually fainted. It was pretty horrible. The other thing that sucks about this whole toenail removal is that because I have both Graves` disease and Hashimoto’s my wounds heal seriously slow. So who know’s how long I’m going to have to mess with bandages and neosporin.  I’m supposed to go back to the doctors on Friday so I guess we’ll see what he says. I just hope I can avoid stubbing or bumping again before it heals.

I found this on reddit…

A post shared by Angel (@mrsangeld) on Apr 21, 2017 at 10:17am PDT

I never forgot how to walk or suffered any kind of horrible accident that left me unable to walk, but I having major back problems has kept me off my feet. Finally we purchased a walker. Yesterday I used it for the first time to walk around Krogers with Mark. Today my calves are very sore, but I suppose I’ll just have to keep going if I want to get better. Currently  My goal is to be walking properly again by the time I get my associates degree. I’m hoping that by then I’ll once again be the old me, who used to walk every where. I miss that. You have know idea how lucky you are to have something like the ability to walk down the street, until you don’t have it. I really hope that things can get better for me.

I want healthcare not health insurance. Insurance is me betting on whether I’ll get sick/injured or not and need to use it. At its core, Insurance is a hedge against uncertain loss. The problem is with health there will always be loss. We are all guaranteed to require medical assistance at some point in our lives. Unlike car or home insurance where there is always the possibility that we will not need to get a payout because we may never have a car wreck or have damage done to our homes. Your personal health is not something anyone should be betting against.

People shouldn’t be forced to purchase health insurance from private entities, but we should provide health care for those who need it. Having people go broke, and lose everything because they didn’t see cancer coming is not only sad but cruel as well. I absolutely see a need for single payer health care. I would gladly pay slightly more in taxes to make sure others are never forced to choose between the rent and the doctors. I’ve been there and it’s a horrible place to be.

When I was first diagnosed with Graves` Disease I did not have health insurance. Mark was working but his employer did not provide dependent insurance for their employees. I was too sick to work and we couldn’t afford to buy insurance. Because it was prior to the affordable care act, I also couldn’t qualify for medical assistance. We racked up quite a debt in medical bills and eventually had to file for bankruptcy because we just could not handle the debt. That was just over seven years ago and we are just now starting to get our credit back on track. In our early & mid-forties.

Single payer healthcare would prevent this exact same type of scenario from occurring for many others. I definitely don’t believe we should get rid of private insurance all together but I do believe we need to make sure that it’s not the only way one can get health care.

I seriously hate doing math work. I just seem to have a hard time grasping the higher concepts of math. I know how to do addition, subtraction, multiplication and division; but all the rules to doing things like fractions and geometry are just so hard for me and are seriously frustrating. It’s not for lack of trying, I have several Math & pre-algebra books for dummies, a few math apps on my phone, and I’ve been using the math tools over at Kahn Academy, and yet still I find myself utterly frustrated. I just don’t get why I have such a difficult time retaining this information.