I’m not angry, not any more. I’m just sad that we will never have the relationship I always wanted. It hurts knowing that the not having you around actually is better for my mental and emotional health. I wanted to have a relationship with you, I wanted things to be good. I wanted for you care about me the way you claim too. It saddens me that after all these years I’ve come to realize that will never happen.

I spent a long time trying to figure out how to behave in a manner that would allow you to love me. But now I know that’s not my job. I can’t wait any more. I have to live my life for me. I am who I am, and I’m okay with that. Maybe someday you’ll see that, but somehow I doubt it. I don’t believe it’s in you to appreciate others for whom they are I think you only see them for what they can bring to you or do for you.

So no I’m not angry with you. I just need to do what’s good for me because in the end I am who I have to live with and if I spend my life chasing after failed relationships I know I’ll never be happy or healthy.  You will always have a place in my heart, but I can’t afford to keep you in my life for my own sanity.